I can't believe it has been one whole month since we said goodbye to Pierce. It seems like it has been forever already, which makes it hard to imagine going on years and years.
At the same time though I remember that day like it was yesterday. I remember holding him in the wee hours of the morning, smooching his little tube free face. I remember animal planet blaring in the back ground while watch him sucking around on his pass, and I remember the doctors coming into talk to us about taking him home, and Phil letting them know he had just passed. I wrapped his little, cold, perfect body in a blanket and said my last goodbyes.
We headed to the cemetery to make our final service arrangements. I remember thinking "NO ONE should have to pick out burial plots at 26." Definitely not what I had planned for myself.
Koen and I stopped by the cemetery yesterday to visit him. He knelt down and said a little prayer for him. I love that he continues to think of him. It is so sweet. He always prays that he will be "good in heaven" or "happy in heaven." I love it.
I hope you are happy too sweet boy. I miss you and wish you were here more than I could ever explain.
XOXO,
Love,
Mom
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Dear friend,
After reading your post titled "When" I could not stop crying. I commented, went and did something and then I just kept coming back to it, and then I would cry again and scroll through your posts.
Jed's grandmother once said, "No one should have to bury a child." (Her son passed away later in life.)I am so sad about what your are going through. You write so honestly and openly. One thing I love about you is that you tell it like it is.You don't make things more than they are but you don't cover up and lessen the reality of things. You make me want to live better and be more grateful. I am so thankful for that summer I got to know you.
Precious Koen, I know I have never met him but feel I know him somewhat through your blog. What a compassionate angel. I am sure he is a comfort to you.
I think of you so often.
I am so happy you got so much time smooching his tube free face! I bet he loved it as much as you did! Cute little guy! Pierce! I love his name. xoxo
I can't believe it's been a month already, it seems like it was just yesterday, but then again it feels like it was long ago. We still think about him daily and his little spirit lives on. All these milestones will be tough, but know that we are all behind you and thinking of you and loving and supporting you.
Alesha, I can't help but cry reading all your sweet words. You and Phil are amazing people!
Side note: that's funny that Lago was your old bishop? Was he really short?
My girls still pray everyday for him to have a good time in Heaven!
You are all in our prayers. Love you!
Wow, Alesha. I just love you.
I just can't even imagine how hard all of this must be. I have a hard time with it, and I'm just his dad's cousin's wife. As a mother I would just be beside myself. I think you are so brave and wonderful for writing all of this down - the good and the bad. We love you guys and keep you in our thoughts and prayers.
oh alesha, your writing touches a place in my heart i didn't know existed. You are such an inspiration, and your strength and words are so amazing. I think about you often, and will continue to pray for peace for you and your family.
C
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