Saturday, September 17, 2011
pictures
I have the hardest time looking at pictures of me when I was pregnant with Pierce. I feel like usually you see those and think "so glad that is not me anymore." For me I miss when it was just me and him. He wasn't sick, he was happy, healthy and alive, inside me. All I knew was that I had another little boy to hold and to love. I knew nothing of this pain and sadness, and had no idea that I would. I think if I have the chance to be pregnant again I will love every second of that time with my baby. That may be the majority of the time I have, just like it was with Pierce. I miss having him to so close and keeping him safe. I miss him. I am having the hardest time quitting pumping. So many people have told me "you need to stop, just let that all go" but it is the only thing I have left of him. It helps remind me he was real.
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This makes me sad! Do what you need to do Lesh and don't worry about what anyone else says. Pierce was and is real. Jason and I talked about him just today as we passed the cemetry on our way home from a date. He has and will continue to impact so many lives for the better.I know I'll never forget him. Love ya!
Let me just say you are one of the cutest and healthiest looking pregnant ladies I have ever seen. I have always been secretly jealous. :) I am sorry for the sadness they bring though.
As for pumping you will know when you are ready to let it go. If it is a comfort, hang on to it for a while.
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