We'll love you forever, so come what may
We'll all be together as a family, some day.
Brigs has asked for "Pierce How We Love You" every day at nap and bedtime lately. I can sing the whole song without getting to choked up now except for the last two lines. "come what may" even though I don't want it to and "some day" even though I wish it was right now.
I seriously can't even believe that next month my baby would be turning one. It has kind of been the longest year of my life. haha At the same time though he will always be my little baby, I can't believe he would be turning 1. I feel like hitting the 11 month mark I can't even think about because all I can think about is how close to a year he is and it has been. WOW!
On Monday I had lunch with one of my favorite friends. I swear every time we get together I just talk and cry and she listens. haha One of her very best friends(Kristin) lost her baby just a few months after me and then she had a baby a few months later. I feel like it just hits her and she is so easy to talk to about everything. Thanks Amber. I seriously love you. She is so sweet and picked up cupcakes to celebrate P's 11 months (a few days early.) I totally cheated on my no sweets during the week for this. Seriously how could I not?
Today we decided to have a little picnic at the cemetery. The weather has been so nice. We invited a few friends and picked up some lunch. I am, as I've said a 100 times, SO GLAD we buried him so close. I am SO GLAD the cemetery isn't very busy. and I am SO GLAD my kids love going. It is like our own little abandoned park. When we were turning it Brigs said "Pierce we coming, I right here." Breaks and melts my heart at the same time. We spent a few hours just chatting, while the kids ran around looking at everyone's stuff and checking everything out.
I am so blessed with so many great friends. I had another friend bring a card (thank you Shar, I know it was you :) and another bring cookies(thanks Amber S). I love you all. Thank you for thinking of me and more importantly of my sweet boy. Nothing is worse than feeling like I am the only one who ever thinks about him, especially when it is a constant for me.
Pierce,
I sure miss you my little buddy. I watched Max our neighbor (one of you BF's) at baseball yesterday and can't believe you'd be that big. I am happy knowing you are free of pain and hurt. I hope you are near by. At the cemetery today I couldn't stop thinking about how your cute little body was really buried right there in the ground. I wish I could hold you again. And smooch those chubby cheeks. Your brothers miss you. Our friends and family miss and love you. We talk about you everyday. We look at your pictures everyday. We hope you are happy everyday. I hope I can make you proud.
Love, Mom
10 comments:
Been thinking about you! That's so cute how brigs said that you were there and coming to pierce. So cute!
What amazing friends you have! I think you spent his special day in a lovely way! Im praying for you as his birthday approaches. Big hugs mama!
What sweet friends... Your boys are so sweet with how much they love Pierce. Thinking of you.
I think the cupcake was a good cheat! I love Brigs's 'Pierce we coming'. So heart wrenching, made me cry. I'm so glad that you are surrounded by loving friends. And I have to agree that there is nothing better than knowing that others are thinking about your baby too. I hope this next month leading up to that first birthday is filled with peace and love!
totally crying...
sending love and thoughts your way
Happy 11 months Pierce! I am so glad you have Amber as a friend as well and that we met through her. She is awesome. I am jealous that you get to go to his grave site so often and have lunch and play there. Some day I will hopefully get to do that!
Sorry that last comment was from me!
I love that you and your friends went on a picnic "with Pierce"! Wish we could have been there too!
Tender!... I would break down if I heard Brigs say "Pierce we coming, I right here." I love that!
I am really behind on blog reading if you can't tell! You are so very welcome. I hope you know how much I think about you and your sweet family. I love ya!
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