interesting

Christmas time and the holidays are always an interesting time when a person is missing from your family. I think it just makes it all stand out a little more. I have a nephew on each side who are with in months of Pierce. It isn't like every time I see them it is painful, or I think "that would be Pierce" but definitely it happens. However at Christmas time{The Holiday's} it ALWAYS happens. I can't help but look at these little toddlers and think that we are missing ours.

It really makes me think about what he would look like, be like, act like, what toys he would like. How he would/could play with his little cousin. It just seems the Holidays make it more evident that your family isn't complete.

I for sure think this year was a lot easier. Even with the reminders, they aren't as painful anymore as they use to be. Although thinking those things obviously make me wish he was here I am able to think of him and imagine him with a happy heart. That is awesome.

I remember when that didn't seem like a possibility. When whenever I thought of him it hurt, because it reminded me he wasn't here, what we had been through and how much I missed him and wished things were different. It is interesting how time heals. I don't like the saying "time heals all wounds" because that makes them seem like they are gone or something. It definitely has a way of softening memories, soothing the heart and drying the tears. But I like to think that my heart has a special wound in the shape of a P that will never fully heal. ♥